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Daddy Issues



Growing up I never had the pleasure of a "nuclear" family.  What exactly is a nuclear family you ask?  Well in layman terms it's the perfect family with a white picket fence living happily ever after and the parental unit consist of a mother and a father.  Yea . . uh no!  For a very long time I held a lot of resentment against the wife of my father . . obviously not my mother . .and I blamed her for everything . .including keeping my daddy away.  I didn't understand why this happened and I never felt like I was part of "that side" of the family for a very long time as well.  I eventually came to terms with things some 30+ years later.  Years wasted feeling a certain way about something I didn't even have all the information to even warrant my feelings. Well got over that . .thank God! Crazy thing is I LOVED my damn sisters and had never really had a relationship with any of them on my dad's side.  Crazy right??

As we got older we began to communicate and it has been the BEST thing ever.  I felt like I had known them all my life in the physical aspect when in reality it was always in my heart that I carried the love for them.  It clearly did not take away the feelings I had of not having MY DAD . .in reality OUR DAD. . with me.  See I got daddy issues! 


See I got daddy issues that I couldn't quite define

The kind that warps your mind

See I got daddy issues that required me to look for love in all the wrong places

The kind that made me wear so many different faces

See I got daddy issues that I didn't even understand

The kind that made me always put myself second to a man

See I got daddy issues that made me want to please

The kind that had me begging and pleading for love on my knees

See I got daddy issues that allowed me to be mistreated and misused

The kind that you don't know about unless you've walked in my shoes

See I got daddy issues that made me believe my body was so dope

The kind that made me wear promiscuity like a cloak

See I got daddy issues searching for that one thing that is missing from my life

The kind that allowed me to become somebody's wife . .not once but twice

See I got daddy issues that made me put up with things I never should have

The kind that make you question why you stayed in the first place, other than to save face

See I got daddy issues that I haven't really gotten over, I would say

The kind that makes me trust no one because they will just leave anyway

See I got daddy issues that required me to be someone I'm not

The kind that will make me cut you off on the spot

See I got daddy issues which allowed me to where my heart on my sleeve

The kind that no one really can conceive

See I got daddy issues that have allowed me to grow into who I am

The kind that helped me to realize that he is just a man

See I got daddy issues that still will make my bottom lip quiver

The kind that makes me wonder if he were there . .would it really be different?

See I got daddy issues that I'm still working through

No matter what happened in the past, I can sincerely say I know that his love is true!


#findyourhappy


With Love,

LR WILSON, Founder


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